So I don’t quite know what to do with myself…

This is the first day in I don’t know how long that I have the house completely to myself.  All my kids are gone and Dave is at the office.  This is my new normal Wednesday and I’m a bit in stunned silence…. literally!

If you read here regularly you know my older kids are in college now.  Emily, my sweet girl, who will turn 18 tomorrow is gone at classes all day. (Shout out to her!! — She can now vote in this country but can’t ride with her little brother on a carnival ride as a “chaperone” adult until she’s 21 —- Gotta love NY state laws and regulations!)

But I digress… what I’m really here to say is… we are trying something new this year.

We have homeschooled our kids from K-12 and we love it! But now having just little Matt at home, we felt he needed something besides just mom all day, every day.  So our local Christian school is offering on Wednesdays, a homeschool-hybrid program where he goes every Wednesday for the full day.  He takes music, Spanish, art, gym and an outdoor exploration class.

He is very excited and has been pumped for weeks about this.  He’s even had his outfit picked out and lying on his bed since last week!

This is really a great move for us as a family.  He gets this awesome experience and I have a kid-free day every week to plan, catch-up on all that needs to be caught-up on and most of all a day dedicated to writing… what I really want to do!

So here I am writing to all of you!  And let me tell you I was an emotional wreck this morning.

You wouldn’t think I would be but I was!

You think I would be celebrating.  I mean, I haven’t had a planned set aside kid-free day in like 21 years but here we are and I am somewhat lost!

We took the traditional first day of school photo because why not… this is a big step!

We drove to the school and when we arrived to get out of the car, I blurted out… “Wait, we have to say a prayer!”  Matt says, “Okay” and Dave chuckles… “okay”… thinking this is what Mama needs!

I catch myself thinking… this is crazy, Rachel, get a grip!  It’s just one day and he will come back home in 6 hours!

So in the middle of my short prayer for Matt’s day, I begin to laugh while tears pool in my eyes.  Matt says, “Why are you laughing, Mom?”

And Dave jumps in, “Mom’s okay.  She’s just happy for you!”

“Yes, Matt, you are going to have a great day!  Let’s go!”

And with that he joined the millions of others going to school for the day.

Now, I sit in a quiet house in a bit of a loss with what to do.

I know you’re screaming at your screen, “How can you not know what to do???  Grab a coffee… do something fun!  Book a spa!  Anything fun and great…. do it! Celebrate!”

And I am.

I’m doing all that plus a lot of other good things! So don’t worry for me.  I’ve got this—- It’s just weird to be all alone!

And really, I do have good plans for this new day and season.  It’s been a long time coming and God has blessed us with this opportunity so that I can focus attention on writing and some other areas He’s pointing me towards.  So it’s all good.

I just wanted to share with you where I am today.

So how are you and where is your day taking you?  I’m heading for another cup of coffee… cause why not… I’ve got the day to myself!

Happy Wednesday, friends!


Linking up with: #Coffeeforyourheart, #TellHisStory,

12 thoughts on “So I don’t quite know what to do with myself…

  1. This is our second year that both of our sons are off to university and I have to be honest Rachel, this year has been a bit more difficult that last year! But they are in God’s hands.



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  2. As God opens new opportunities it can feel like ‘you don’t know what to do with yourself’ – but that is ok. God will open your eyes to how best to enjoy your time.
    I’m so happy for you Rachel, and Matt too!

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    • Thanks, Trudy! It will be a great year! Yes, we are very happy with the set up. They offered this for the first time last year and had a good response and now there are even more students. It’s great because as homeschoolers we sometimes skip out or skim over gym, art, music etc but now he gets to do this in a group setting so it’s great! Thanks for stopping over and jumping in! Happy Wednesday to you!

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  3. I cried most of the morning on the 1st day of school this year. It’s a tough day, the silence can be deafening! You will get into a new groove after awhile and I think it makes you appreciate the time when you’re all together more.

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