Now that I’m getting back into the groove of life. I’m once again joining up with my friends at Five Minute Friday. This is where we are given the same word prompt and each write on that word for 5 minutes. We link up over with Kate Matoung and encourage one another with words. Come join us!
Today’s word prompt is: READY
“We head south today.” That’s all Hubby said and the tears fell.
On this long trip of dropping off our daughter for college, we had planned stops along the way. People to see, places to go, mountains to climb and water slides to conquer but today was the day we were heading south towards Seattle.
I wrote in my journal that day:
Before on this trip we were always heading north. We we’re continually moving up, stepping higher. But today….today we begin the descent. There is no more heading somewhere else.
Even though this trip has been heading us toward this ultimate destination of taking her to a new place to live, the words, “We’re heading south today” hit heavy in my gut.
Excitement builds for her…as it should. Each mile traveled carries us closer and builds anticipation.
I’m excited for her and this new beginning in her journey. Time has moved quickly and she’s grown up before my very eyes.
Grace carries me through as I swallow hard each mile that ticks by. I can’t stop the miles and I can’t stop the tears.
It’s a process and today’s a hard day as we begin heading south.
Are we ever really ready for the day we let them go?
As parents we raise them to let them go and I’ve heard that many times, yet when we are faced with that moment it’s harder than you think.
A month before our trip, I met with a good friend. We sat in the coffee shop and sobs literally poured from my eye ducts.
“I can’t imagine leaving her. I can’t handle walking away from my daughter and leaving her behind.”
And my friend’s words of wisdom…a mom who has been there…spoke:
“Rachel, no matter how you imagine it….. no matter how bad you think it will be…it’s going to be worse!”
Wow! That just oozed with soothing sympathy.
But she went on,
“So stop imagining how awful it’s going to be and instead live in the joy of the days you have with her now. Know it’s going to be bad… yet live in joy today and for all the days you have with her. And then, when the day comes…let it be terrible….let it be hard. Because it will be….and nothing you try and do to make it not be hard will work.”
And she was right….and that’s why I love her!
So we played, we laughed and I smiled at my grown-up girl as she packed herself away in boxes and suitcases. We shopped, drank coffee, and shopped some more.
I loved each moment and snapped pictures in my mind for my memory bank of life.
And ready or not…the day came…and I wasn’t ready….no one ever is.
It’s tough and it’s hard and tears still come reliving that moment as it unfolded.
But this is what I know now…. It’s a necessary step for us and for them.
We let go of familiar to experience something new
We move forward to move closer to Him.
And whether we are ready or not…He holds us either way.